I have not been entirely honest with most of my friends and family, especially when it comes to any relationships that I might be in.
I have always laughed off any comment by a friend when he/she asked me if I ever thought of settling down, why I never seemed to be able to find someone in my life….
I guess I was protecting myself, when I pretended to others that I really did not care for anyone, the pretense would almost convince me and make me immune to any possible hurt from any relationships.
So, my confession today is, yes, I have been in relationships where I thought everything would work out, and then I would wake up to the fact that I really did not want to be in that relationship.The one relationship that meant to me the most, I know, will never happen.
I want now to be free, of any emotions, all I want to do is to drift from day to day and not have to blink and lie when someone asks me again “What do you think will make you really happy?”