I burnt out, I panicked and I suffocated

I locked myself and threw the key out

For the world was a frightening place

But I frightened myself more

As I noticed myself waiting

For any hand to reach out

For a voice to instill calm

For an arm to hold my fall

I fell

I broke

I felt my world shatter as I looked up

And saw the depths to which I had fallen

And then started clawing my way back

There is no safety net



Pushing Myself

I pushed myself today

And adrenaline gushed through my veins

I felt myself stretched and waited for the inevitable break

I looked around and could see through my hands

Stretched paper thin;

I panicked as I realised

That the pulse of my heart

Was out of tune with my breath;

My heart beats built to a crescendo that deafened me;

I saw the world tilt and felt my feet slip;

I clawed and scratched trying to get a grip

And realised that there was no friction to be felt anywhere;

And so I pushed myself more

Felt the air around me shatter

And was reborn, stronger.